Greetings. I just want to warn you that this post will be short. Its a "spontane" post. Unplanned. Just like us. We're unplanned. But we're here nonetheless in this century. Life is a beautiful thing.
I know what you are probably thinking..... that your life is crappy so I need to shut up....but shut doesn't go up only, it goes in all different directions if that's what you desire.
If I say, we frustrate our own divine potential...I'd be quoting a spiritual advisor.
Lets talk about the S word briefly.
I am going to give you my definition of it, other than the general definitions out there. There are many. Sometimes this word can be misconstrued.
I'm not going to say in my definition, rather for me... to be spiritual is to be able to access the inner "real" you. As simple as that. Its not an imagined perspective. What you get is as real as your person. If you can somehow learn to do that, the world becomes clearer.
There are many ways to access the inner real you, and many ways to destroy the potential to access the inner real you. I have to admit no one can do it for you.
Here is one thing. Its a process. It took me thirty eight years and I'm still not there. In my theoretical opinion, the universe is limitless, but we are not designed to know just how limitless it is.
I've already tried to get ahead of this theory and have failed. I can't really explain how that works. Rather, I will say this, its individuality plus your journey, and everyone's journey is unique.
Here is another thing I have found, just personally on my journey. You cannot choose it. It chooses you. When it does, you may not even understand it. You may find that you think you are completely crazy, that no one would ever believe you or take you seriously.
Except, its still looming, and once it chooses you, you cannot escape it, or at least that's my opinion. Think of it as an entity on its own, but from your inside. It rears itself during a special circumstance, it could be a crisis, a tragedy or something so profound, you fear you have lost yourself and you can never regain it. This is not true at all. But I can't explain it to you why its not true, because then, I would be telling you about my journey and again, it doesn't work like that as everyone's journey is unique, like your DNA.
You didn't loose yourself. You do not have to believe in it right away. However, you will find that it will find its own way into your life by accident. And it "ain't" accident per say, its purposefully.
It was always that way for all of us, we just came into this planet and got a myriad of things thrown at us. Like you went to school and someone made fun of your skin, your hair, that stuck....you don't know how to unstuck it, so it sort of becomes real in your mind when its not, its just another unworthy opinion from someone who projected that insecurity unto you and like a sponge, you absorbed and believed it when you shouldn't have. Why did you believe it? Because no one was there to tell you at the time it wasn't true.
You think because of one simple comment, you are unworthy to be loved, or for the divine masters to notice you. Well, I'm telling you now it wasn't true. You or I cannot escape our divinity, if we could, then why are we here? Exactly.....there is no explanation other than that the spiritual powers only reveal to you what it desires.
Sometimes, you have to take it easy. If you don't you can confuse yourself, and then you start doubting yourself. Not a good position to be in when trying to access the strengths inside yourself.
If you are intending to become spiritual, or attempting to find peace in anyway....no one can do it for you. You have to be open, you have to find your own limitlessness.....its okay to have a guide. Mine, there is only one. You already may surmise who he is. I have already spoken his name several times on my blog, that has not changed and it never will.
Its absolutely okay to take it easy on yourself, even question your heart. Suppose you think, you have no heart left, try your gut, listen to that, which is your heart coming through a different channel that's just my opinion.
I'm still trying to figure out if my heart can be wrong, I'll suffice it to say no. Mine cannot, I truly feel this way, it took a long time for me to get here, so I cannot then turn around and tell my heart "Yeah your done you led me astray" The reason is because, whatever your heart chose, you needed that in whatever stage of life you are at, if its a good place or a bad place, I assure you I believe its the same thing, its just that the spectrum is a little different, or maybe the times have changed.
We were all born elevated. So if you got lost, believe that you can and will and deserve to find your way again to whatever and wherever your spirituality leads.
Peace and love.
Have you visited this blog before? If so, then you know that I have no set special day to post thoughts or musings. I do so at the behest of the heartstrings. If I am to write I will, and if I have nothing to give, then I can't write. This post will be short.
What is Thought "Refinition" ?
If "Refinition" isn't a word already, it is now. For me and the purposes of this blog.
To understand what thought refinition is in my mind, you would have to understand how fragile and limited we are as a race. You can try to elevate your race, you can try to define who you are through the color of your skin and make a huge deal about it forever if that is your wish....
Notice I said "forever".... Not just today or tomorrow but for all time. That is refinition that you are practicing in my opinion. You have decided to wake up, and expound on your thoughts.
You have decided to define yourself by you skin and its complexities, furthermore, you told someone, who told someone else, now everyone knows and you just don't care. That's blatant refinition.
You've already inserted your language in your genetic coding. Its all over you. And you should be proud because at least you stand for something. Good or bad. Want everyone to know you are Black or White, Indian or Spanish? Good, by way of having to say or remind anyone of your race, you have elected to refine the conversation around something you think is important to you. Again. Good.
Next, here is another example of why I call this "refinition," You have said or done something you consider to be less than ideal, or maybe you did or said something that you think is ideal, but someone else doesn't....still you refuse to change your position....did you know that that was okay? All ways.
How do you define something bad or good? You refine in your own way and make a call for yourself... we do this unconsciously every single day.
We ourselves at this point in time is our truest...and still, there is always room for "refinition." We refine our art, (like me) art is wide...it can't be contained, I am not sure if art can be wrong, the only time I can consider it to be wrong is if it hurts other people...like your fellow neighbors....friends....family.....and even so....we are still in "refinition." We do not purposely and consciously choose hurt. I have to believe this, or else I'm screwed.
Did you learn something yesterday or the day before? every language, every reason, everything you touch or hold, can be refined.
There are currently in my mind two ways to think of something....good, bad, for me there is no in between its either or. You can refine either though.
However you process a situation, try to take it apart and refine it. We as humans should always be in a state of constant refinition or, I feel we become stuck.
Once your stuck, that's pretty much it. Why? Because you've created for yourself a reason to stay "unrefined," that mindset takes a wallop to break, you become a refinition of repetition. If you are okay with that, then you get to miss out on things that really matter because you are too busy repeating and refining your stuck.
If I am to be "refinition," then I must forge that with some type of positivity. The polar opposite of that is negative....did you know that that was okay too? Negative charges eventually find its way back to a positive charge. Back and forth. The only thing that can break this cycle, is to not break it, but to refine it, so you can get to a place where the charges work better for you whether you are on the negative or positive side of it.
Refine your thoughts.
Refine your goals.
Refine your engine.
The oil guys already know how important "refinition" is.
Refine your melody.
Refine your decisions.
Refine your choices.
Refine your chaos.
Refine your suffering.
Refine your struggle.
Refine your lyrical life.
Refine your painting.
Refine your poetry.
Refine your voice.
Refine your spirit.
Refine your wine.
Refine your career (I didn't say get rid of it, just refine it and see if it still works for you, if it does, refine it some more so it can work better for you).
Refine your love, (That's already solid, it just is and can't be anything else, but still it can be refined into its purest form. I call that bliss but you can have another name for it if you want.)
Refine your hope, (This one's so worth it. When hope is refined, your heart can burst, not literally, but its just a feeling you get, that all is well somehow and you can't explain it so there is no need to explain it.)
Refine your motives.
Refine your technology.
Refine your peace and prosperity. (Did you get lost somewhere in time where you thought prosperity is gone? It isn't....all you have to do is refine it so you can get to another kind of prosperity.)
Refine your skills.
Refine your drive.
Refine your calculations.
Refine your questions.
The last refinition here is going to be your answers. So refine your answers to your own questions you are asking. Add your own thoughts in whatever way you can if you read this, think about the things you need to refine. If you have nothing to refine, I cannot speak for you. My work has to speak for me and I let it.
Truly, next time though.
If you listen to my music or check out my blog, this will be a different blog for you and me. This is random stuff. I've attributed it to something that I'm going to term "Thoughtdits."
Random thoughts (Thoughtdits). Let me explain how this will work. Each line, each number represents words or a thought that I have in the moment. Something that came to mind, I'll put it down then try to explain with an answer. The answers, or the way this is written might not take a hold for you. Like I said they are random.
1) Random ..... Something occurs, because it does.
2) Escape ..... You can't and I can't. Why would you bother to try? You try because you can't escape sunlight, or air.
3) Peace commitment ..... Are we at peace, within us that is, are you at peace? Why not? You don't even need to answer, because I don't have an answer for you either.
4) Pagan ..... I don't know how to define that term.
5) Placate ..... So you want what? Nothing? neither do I. There is nothing to placate.
6) Crocs ..... slippers or an actual crocodile? I'm not telling you.
7) Shrug ..... Its best at times, especially while doing laundry. (I'm a mom, laundry is a part of the genetic code).
8) Porridge ..... Cornmeal hello, like Goldilocks; she liked it, and we made the best porridge when I was a kid. Milky, creamy and everything in between with a little cinnamon and it has to be a little sweet with no lumps. Cornmeal also, is good for your facial routine if you don't have Noxzema.
9) Later ..... The opposites are earlier, or on time, which gives you two opposites. That just proves it doesn't have to be one opposite all the time even though I accept one most of the times.
10) Pluses ..... Do you know what you have to do to form a plus. Good luck.
11) Fifty Shades ..... Of religion which I don't even see how that works. There are many religions, too many shades of it. So wot? Live.
12) Visit .... Only earth, because that's where we are. Got something to say? Just look. Explore to your heart's content safely and in prayers, that is my wish for you and myself.
13) Notoriety ..... youme or you then me or me then you. Take care now.
14) Spectator ..... Obviously, only time can tell if we spectate. Put some flowers on that.
15) Pyrotechnics ..... Puleeze, who knows. Lights, action, leave that cam back there so you check on it never.
16) Styrofoam ..... makes noise when you voice or touch it. I think, so don't take my word for it.
17) Lashes ..... Could be that's hair.
18) 180 degrees ..... Whats that? I thought there was a 360 degrees ( I told you these were random thoughts).
19) Tarp ..... Is that a cover? Or is that a message? Forget it.
20) Last ..... This is the last numbered random thought, not your average avatar, but not my last numbered random "thoughtdit."
Lets move on to a few letters, something worthwhile because numbers are just as important.
a) Name and blame ..... cut that out! Whats your deal? Live, why can't you just remember something so simple, even though I forget things all the time, still.
b) Cradle and saddle ..... These are obviously two different words I just wanted to list them.
c) Mode and abode.... Anything you want is yours technically speaking, but we know that's not entirely true.
d) Surround and abound ..... Why would you not? abound. You're brilliant. Save some for you me them.
e) Choice and foist ..... come hither, but you better stay put from where you are at, or else nothing.
f) Far and tar ..... Far is far, tar is black, its thick and hot, its a natural resource. Natural resources are so important. Why are they important? No you didn't ask that? I was expecting you to know this fact, its important so leave it at that.
g) Deck and check ..... You can card this, casino this if you want which I don't even make up. What I really want you to do is check, check that you are well. Be well, not the one with water, just actual health well.
Now lets start backwards of the alphabet.
z) Z ..... Literal. Do this at night-time, relax, stay true, elevate your state, not the country state, not your red state, not your blue state, just your state "Of....."
y) Whyyyyyeeeee ..... I'm hoping Y comes before Z, but if you turn it around you see that Z actually can be first, it isn't of course. That's too bago short for badgood.
x) Hexagon ..... To many sides, too many.
w) Again ..... (W)hyyyyeee, ain't that how that's pronounced? not in my opinion.
After W, what's next?
T) Toll boot, could be that is booth.
L) Lacking doesn't mean material always.
7) Try always because its all you can do.
50) Random as "Fu" ................ ture. Not the curse word. It can't be on here, only in my art, it will possibly show up but I don't need it to make a point. Neither do you. That's why it isn't necessary for it to be here. It can however be in many other places. You decide where you want that for yourself.
Scientific) Exactly, random. Lots of things start with S.
Production) Largely about the generation of ideas, just like this blog and your blog, this work and your work. My thing and your thing. All the same but with different uptakes. Here's an idea for instance, I will cook at some point but not sure when. Get that? Even if you don't cook, someone mentioned it to you back there somewhere, now you know cooking starts with a C, I'm sure I didn't need to tell you that.
The point I'm trying to make is, be okay with your random thought processes, you need them. They can't exist without you. Mine can't exist without me. That's why I wrote this blog like this. You might find it weird, or even ridiculous but again, just words and random thoughts, this is what makes up creativity. Creativity is a huge word. It's like a pall, you can't get rid of it, its what makes us up.
My name is Tracy and welcome to my site and blog page. Thanks for stopping by. On this page I will try to catalogue some things or pivotal moments I feel have made me who I am. There may even be moments that are not so pivotal but more like a muse, a funny memory or otherwise. Be warned though, I may take things off, I may re-edit or remove things. If you happen to read something and it isn't here anymore, its because I am either re-editing, or getting ready to add something else. Also, some of the things I say on here may be understandable and some may not, and sometimes I may not blog or add anything for a while. It's okay with me if you don't understand me or what I write, I mean no ill will in my words or what I write so don't take it personal if it offends you that's just not my aim. My blog or this page is created for me, and for my fans or anyone who wants to come on here and read what I write.