For this post, I am going to drop some words that you may or may not know about. Shall we?
BAM!......................... thats a short one.
How about, BAMBOOPBAP!................ that one doesn't quite fit.
Let's try BOOPBAPBOODUMBAPBUP!................. That still doesn't work for me. Moving on.
Lets do TRACTORBEAMBAPPSHHHHHHHHHHHBOOOOOM! Not quite there yet. Lets Try TRACTORBEANBOOMBAPBLOWPLOWFLATTENEDREVERSEDOUTDOWNPSHHHHHPLOWSKIDAP!!!!! with extra exclamations. Awthankyou. Thats what that "D" word does. No one wants to utter it really, no one wants it near them and I don't blame them. I won't even say it.
If you happen to come on my blog and you are a fan of my work or my music, then you are why I do what I do besides God and the fact that I'm an artist.
My 18 year marriage ended last year. I don't have anything to say other than the fact that my 18 year marriage ended last year. If you are going to know anything about me, you should at least know that. I am in the dreaded "D" word space. No one goes into a commitment and partnership expecting it to end. No one can prepare you for it and no one can understand unless they have gone through it.
We share our three children and I just will not speak on my relationship due to the fact that we share these beautiful children and I know it can get lost in translation that children are involved, are even hurt and are the brunt often times of misguided or bad situations.
My aim is to put myself first which allows me to put my kids first if that sounds wierd thats because we are both first me and my kids, to them....I am in all essence "Poof what do you need".......for them I am that. I'm supposed to be sad and torn up. It was that way at first because that's just what that "D" thing does.
However, I insert here GOD. In my own opinion, I trust in my Creator. God does not want me to be sad, or you to be sad, God wants us dealing with that "D" thing to find common ground and start focusing on what truly makes us happy as individuals. So all of our pasts are just that. The Past. Past as in gone. As in was. As in no longer. Bye bye now. Behind me. Looking ahead like God wants me to do.
My advice if you care for it, or rather my opinion on that "D" thing is this....if you are going through it or are about to go through it put yourself first. Only then can you get proper perspective on how you want to move forward. But its just my opinion on my blog, you don't have to take anything with you from here if you read this. Opinions are just opinions not facts, so I won't ask anyone to solidly come on my blog and take anything from here you can leave it right here and form your own too and thats okay.
Furthermore in my opinion....as you deal with "D," Take as much time as you need to figure out what you yourself want. Also, its okay to change your mind. Try not to let anything or anyone persuade you into not prioritizing yourself or your needs. Why am I even saying this?......because only then can you let go and forgive and forgive you must or you will never find peace.
You will know true peace when you let that stuff go. Its not the end of the world because its God's world.
Let go. Breathe. Let go. Love again, anything, anyone, any poem, any art work, a movie, a comedy show, a book, prayer, a fulfilling activity and definitely do not let anyone in your life tell you or make you think you do not matter. In my opinion, if you are thinking that you don't matter and something or someone is making you think that then that something or someone is probably not going to help your healing because you and me belong to God and we matter to God all ways......always There is too much positive things out in the world to help you move on with your life. Thanks.
My name is Tracy and welcome to my site and blog page. Thanks for stopping by. On this page I will try to catalogue some things or pivotal moments I feel have made me who I am. There may even be moments that are not so pivotal but more like a muse, a funny memory or otherwise. Be warned though, I may take things off, I may re-edit or remove things. If you happen to read something and it isn't here anymore, its because I am either re-editing, or getting ready to add something else. Also, some of the things I say on here may be understandable and some may not, and sometimes I may not blog or add anything for a while. It's okay with me if you don't understand me or what I write, I mean no ill will in my words or what I write so don't take it personal if it offends you that's just not my aim. My blog or this page is created for me, and for my fans or anyone who wants to come on here and read what I write.