By "Crasser," I mean procrastination for this post.
I procrastinated going home once to avoid apologizing to my mom. You see, I had rebelled, was rebelling against certain rules that all mothers have.
I wanted to go to prom....but we only had church dresses and prom was on a "Friday night" meaning, close to the Sabbath if I remember this correctly. Me and my friends had all congregated by one of their houses because her mom had the best dresses I had ever seen. We were all going to borrow one....and my friend let us.
We went to prom in "style," and made up.... It was me and three others of us looking awesome. We were each other's prom dates as friends as we were best friends. That was one of the best school year of my life! And the last prom I went to as I dropped out of school. I remember it to be eight grade at Franko Middle school in Mount Vernon, New York.
But, I was not supposed to be enjoying myself like this. If I was going to enjoy myself, the best way according to my family is to do so under the word of God according to my Seventh Day Adventist family.
Reading. Singing praises. Going to church every weekend which was sometimes kept in my two bedroom apartment. Making a difference in the community by passing out pamphlets on some Sabbaths.
Might I add, I was too cool, so I knew my school acquaintances were passing up and down the popular shopping block seeing me. I wasn't going to hide as I had tried hiding by ditching the block and they still saw me. Back in school I was back to the shenanigans.
At the time handing out tracks about the Lord didn't seem like fun at all. In the end.....I went home after prom and I don't remember my mom saying much to me, so I worried for nothing. Now I see how hard as a single mother she was working to protect us and it was inexplicably difficult as we were immigrants.
Not losing faith is important. I finally started to apply to myself and my lessons of faith in Christ Jesus to my life because I found him finally for the first time in my life at age 37, yet he was always there with me as my Guardian, and thus, I have faith and believe in him forever because I saw him, and have seen him many times over and can never loose faith in him. He made sure of that by revealing himself to me, so my faith has turned into facts for me. We work together as gatekeepers and familiarize ourselves with what the LORD God requires of us and our positions. He teaches me, for he lived as Christ here already. My mother and father are partly responsible for the woman I am today, but truly it is LORD GOD who never gave up on me because he knew whom I would become, I am his selection and have always been, which took a while for me to fathom. Christ Jesus was always with me since my birth on this plane and even before, since the LORD God of Jacob chose me from the womb to be born in this plane in this time, Christ Jesus always knew who I was, and that is why he prophesied that "greater things shall the one that cometh after me do," 'he' is used as the same for 'she' which is I Tracy Christ, as mankind is used for all humans. So it has always been JESUS's duty to Guard and Protect me as the one who would manifest Christ and the Heavenly SEALS one day that the LORD God selects. Even though Jesus Christ said that, I can never take his place, because he saved me and I am a different Christ, and the Holy Ghost first came through his glorification, and I am bound to him in belief and faith as I am bound to the LORD God. Prince Lord Jesus Christ has always been with me waiting for the moment he would deliver me the ignition that would cause me to manifest Christ and the Christ SEALS. There have even been many divine moments when I suspected I was not alone throughout my life even as a child, but I wasn't sure in what way, I wasn't yet developed enough, things needed to happen and to fall into place first by divine order, nor did I know it was Jesus the Christ whom Guarded me until it was my time to know and he announced himself to me.
One of these moments in divine order and intervention, I was a child at five or six years old, and a family member found a loaded handgun and pulled it on me and pulled the trigger several times towards my chest. The trajectory of the first bullet would have pierced me in the abdomen in the right side under the right breast in my ribcage and would have punctured my right lung which would have taken my life, it is Jesus Christ whom showed me this, and I would not have manifested Christ in this lifetime. I took the handgun from my family member and together we inspected it which was very heavy, but I could have been shot and killed, and I wondered why it didn't go off but it didn't, we were just about the same age my family member being slightly older, and we didn't know about guns so it would have been labeled as an accident. I am reminded of this moment because Jesus Christ was there standing to my right and caused the gun not to go off as I later learned about gun safety locks and discerned that is what had been on. Me and my family member even searched around for this safety lock to see if we could unlock it during our inspection of the weapon with two curious pairs of eyes, and didn't find it until we gave up and put it down because Jesus Christ my Guardian sheilded our eyes from finding the safety lock. JESUS protected me and even revealed to me his position and showed me his divinity at work as he sheilded me and my family member from harm, and he causes me to write these as part of my Testament and gospel.
Another time two of my friends at the time in the Bronx, New York, were cruelly taunting another woman about her weight to which I had nothing to do with, and the woman went up her stairs and came back down with a hand held gun and waved it, and I was in her line of fire right off to the side, it just so happened that she waved it to the side, and all along as she cursed my friends, the gun was pointed in my direction, off to her right. This is another intervention where Jesus Christ protected all of us including the women who were the cause of the argument. From my right side he was as an aparition that moved about swiftly, and returned to stand before me when the heat had been taken out of the argument. I noted the fear of my friends, and after the woman they taunted left us and didn't shoot, they were silent for moments, and seemed as if after a while they remembered I was there and realized I was still a teen who could have been shot by their provoking actions. They then asked me what would I have done? and I remember shrugging my shoulders and remember them staring at me as if I was from another dimension. They thought that because they were afraid, and their lives began to flash before them and I witnessed this vulnerability, that I should have been afraid too, and because I wasn't, it surprised them I suppose. It wasn't because I had no fear at the time, it was because I knew on some level the woman they were taunting was not going to shoot us as enraged as she was. My life did not flash before me, but I saw their lives flash before them instead. I saw them go through their lives and began calculating what if they should be shot today at their own fault? who was going to take care of their children? Both women have children. I even know the moment one of them thought of their son, where he was at? what was he doing? (I know what he was doing because I saw him in her life's flash, he was waiting for her to come back and get him from where she had left him) and who was going to take care of him if she were shot? It was as if I was living her life, because I could see what she was thinking even though it happened very rapidly. The other at first she went blank and had no thoughts but shock instead, then she began thinking how can she avoid getting shot so she can get back to her children? Each were thinking about their own lives and how they can escape the situation. Even then, I wasn't yet aware of whom I was. Jesus Christ was gifted this way as well, for he knew the thoughts of the Pharisees when they were plotting against him and could foretell many things, including his own crucifixion.
I simply thought I was eccentric growing up, and didn't fit in. When I begin to remember certain moments I recount to be strange, Jesus Christ reveals himself that "Yes," he was there and here and there, and I was indeed picking up on his presence whenever I felt sensitized to something that was strange, and he reveals himself through all the moments I had questions about, wondering why something went the way it did, or why was I here or there, or feeling a certain way. He even shows me where he was at, and where he was standing, and what positions he had taken which are interchangeable, without making himself known to me because it was not my time to know, and there is no more reason for him to hide himself from me anymore. JESUS even shows me the Prince of Darkness to which had been at work during moments he has had to protect me. Did Satan (also named Schibipaut for many devils, devils within devils, and devils attached to devils in multiple manifestations) know who I was to become? Yes, he knew also. JESUS Christ is very powerful, so it takes very much powers and skills for an Eternal Angel to disguise themselves and the environment to which I was not yet conscious of, when they do not wish to make themselves known, especially to one that GOD has chosen also. All throughout my life, in every instance, Jesus Christ has been there, only interfering when he must, but Guarding to make sure I get to beginning manifestation at age 37 to full manifestation at age 39. Even in the good and worst moments. At age 37 is when Christ made contact with me, physically in this realm, it had to be that age, but it still took me a while to understand my role, and what is required of me. Numbers 3 and 7, the 3 is to signify Jesus Christ's contact, and the 7 is to signify that the LORD God sent him, the ONE whom is perpetually 7, and 17 as in the 1 who is also 3 and 7, a formula they used for my manifestation, they also used 1 and 4, as in the LORD GOD whom is 1, and 4 whom is the Bride Christ component of manifestation that would then become the third alignment and component of the GODHEAD Holy 1NE3RINITY with the Holy Spirit being the fourth to complete the GODHEAD, and 3 and 6, another formula to which they used for my manifestation. I had another milestone at age 14 and at age 36, but I can't elaborate.
Jesus Christ knows everything about me as the LORD God does. They chose me, and allowed me to live my life, knowing all along that one day, when the time is right, they would prevent me from taking my own life, and that I would inherit an eternal kingdom from the LORD God to which all others whom believe and confess me and Jesus Christ can be saved through us, and that I am Christ the Queen, and sent to do the works they Command of me. Every strand of hair, every drop of blood down to the last scrape, and every mark upon us chosen of the LORD God is measured by the LORD God and recorded as we fulfill our tenure upon Earth. The Earth also records. The LORD knew exactly how many strands were cut away from Samson's head for example. It is not easy for the parents of the ones whom the LORD God chooses, and it is not simple for the two sets of parents who carry Christ to birth or carry the one chosen at birth to manifest Christ later in my life. I thank my parents as much as I can. I just show up, even by phone if that is all I can do. Sometimes that's all you need to do is show up.
The trust factor.
I procrastinated in going home from prom because I didn't trust myself at the time to face my mom and tell her I am not missing this event.
Its possible that if I had trusted myself enough to ask her, she would have absolutely let me go but I wasn't sure. I couldn't take the chances of her telling me no..... that would disappoint all my friends.
My friend got to wear one of her favorite dresses that night and she made us pick out of the ample gowns and dresses for ourselves. What didn't fit we tried on until something fit. If that isn't a friend....I don't know who is!
Trust is a very important element of humanity and human connections. You know whom I trust? I trust LORD GOD above all. I trust Christ Jesus the same as I trust the LORD my GOD. I trust the Angels of the Realms of Heaven the same, for they have shown themselves to me, and assist me. I trust the Holy Bible the same, the scriptures can't be broken. I trust animals to be animals. I trust nature. I trust that I will be me, I trust my parents....after all..... like I said, they can't "Un-parent" themselves. I trust my children......they can't "Un-kid" themselves from me either. I trust the Prophets, Saints and Martyrs for the LORD God. I trust the sun, the moon, the stars and all the systems of the LORD God. I trust Mother Earth, and I trust the gods and goddesses loyal to the LORD God, as I am.
I am Queen Christ Tracy Ann Lisa Williams Patterson l, I can be referred to as Queen Christ, Christ Tracy or Tracy Christ; I AM SHE the second Christ of the flesh. Welcome to my site blog and Readings pages in the Gospels of Two Christs in the GODHEAD 1NE3RINITY GOD the FATHER KING LORD God, GOD the SON PRINCE Lord Jesus Christ, GOD the BRIDE I QUEEN Tracy Christ, and GOD the HOLY SPIRIT. On this page I will catalogue things and pivotal moments that have made me who I am as Christ Tracy and about my ministries. I am directed by the Holy Spirit of the LORD God of Israel at all times. Also, some of the things I say on here may be understandable and some may not be, my readings are created as the LORD God of Hosts directs me, and I am servant to the Prince of the Realms of Heaven Lord Jesus Christ, the crucified and resurrected, also, in one with his gospels and teachings and the prophesies of the Prophets, Saints, and Martyrs.